RC1 and RC2 was tiring yet beneficial.
ive recapped and learnt many new stuff during the RCs.
Soft skills and hard skills were tapped on.
Values and Principles were inculcated.
ive learnt alot from my instructors JiaMin and YanRu.
They had the ability to discipline and teach without scolding us.
ok maybe they did sometimes but it aint as much as the other instructors.
thank goodness we got them as our instructors :x
without their guidance, all of us wld have remained lost.
1st day of RC1 i alreadi got scolded by Zhi Guang LOLs.
den 3rd day of RC1 i got scolded by Hui Ping.
1st day of ATC i got reprimanded by YanRu.
1st night of ATC i got reprimanded also by Caine.
im sure there were more scoldings but either way, those scoldings woke me up in different situations and moreover i deserved them anyway.
(cuts everything short)

ATC was when the whole nightmare began.
i was appointed as the tent inspection I/C and to tell u the truth, i really hated myself on the 1st day for being so lost and in one way or another, selfish.
Caine's criticism really woke me up.
and throughout ATC i didnt have a voice to help me accomplish certain stuff.
so i was basically "mute" for the whole camp lol.
u noe it was sooo irritating during those times when i tried to speak and have a great time.
nth comes out but a distorted voice that i doubt anyone cld hear. -.-
blah blah blah....
last day of ATC when we formed a circle.
As expected i didnt get anything frm the instructors again.
But who needs a collar pin to be motivated?
The instructor's words were enuff encourage me to strive harder and soar to greater heights.
Even though i cld not perform to the best of my ability, i gave my best and tt was wad made my performance during the course all the more satisfying.
i managed to widen my comfort zone becoz i pushed myself.
i was able to improve becoz i was willing to learn and accept the help and criticisms frm the instructors.
i realized my strengths and weakenesses.
And best of all, i didnt give up when faced wif the difficult circumstances which wld lead to scoldings and a ruined reputation.
i guess the risks i took were worth it and i can truly say tt i am proud of myself for making tt effort even though more cld have been done.

Amilia and i had been thru the whole tentage fiasco together and made it out successfully.
thx Amilia for being wif me thru the rain and shine and for all the support. (:
i dun tink i wld have make it had it not been ur cheerfulness and enthusiasm that nv failed to help me to loosen up and remind me of how a leader shld deal wif problems calmly.

THANK YOU:

Jiamin: for bringing smiles to my face and letting me feel less tensed. u seem to be the most approachable CII and thankfully u really are lmao. ive learnt alot frm u, really. And ur words of encouragement..awesome (:

Yanru: I've learnt loads loads loads from u. The values, principles, and learning how to think lectures worked wonders on me. it really widened my mind a whole lot more. now ive so much to share wif my cadets when i go bak to my unit. i like the way u approach things and how u observe each and everyone of us. thx for the motivation tt kept me going throughout the course!

Zhi Guang: dun tink i 4got abt tt toot incident where u scared me wif the toot loud hailer lmao. ok bak to NPCC. i guess without instructors like u the trainees wld have met a worser fate wif their injuries? ure always running around wif the first aid kit during RC. goes to show how serious u are even if the injuries the trainees sustained were minor. it taught me somethin. tt no matter how minor things are, take them seriously becoz minor things can go on to become something major. thx for teaching me tt.

Caine: tt night during ATC, u really woke me up when u told amilia and i tt we sucked at our job. and tt was so so true at tt time lol. both of us were really blur then but u and the other instructors guided us bak. and wad u said to me during the whole "shaking hands session" really made alot of sense and it motivated me to strive harder. thx for tt and the many things u taught me during ATC!

Abdullah: thx for ur support during and b4 the course! sry ive onli got 1 line for u LOLs. dun realli noe how to put it in words but...a very VERYYYYYYY big THANK YOU for everything~
ok now ive got more things to say. thx for the help u gave me b4 ATC started. unlike SOMEONE hu refused to giv me the answer to some questions...u were kind enuff to giv them to me. (:

Vincent: hopefully i made u proud during the course? i did my best and i hope my best was gd enuff. thankfully i listened to ur advice to take this course and i didnt regret attending it at all.
thank you for believing tt i cld do it and thank you for motivating me time and again. wadever u said tt time at sana were one of the things tt kept me going throughout the course and i thank u GREATLY for tt. (:

18 days of challenges and fatigue have finally come to an end.
the journey of our CI life has finally begun.
hiphip hooray!

To my squad Aplha~
Our squad is a superbly special squad.
For the past generations of CIBTC squads, they were all Alphas then when it came to the 75th year, Aplha was born all becoz of our baton awardee Kevin lmao.
even though there were times when it seemed soo bleak, we spurred each other on till we reached the finishing line of the course.
wif jokes and countdowns, time seemed to fly so fast.
ytd we were blur trainees all rusty and unrefined. today, we are CIs, brand new.
we came in the course as strangers and left the course as friends.
its just amazing how 18 days of torture bonded us together to have a relationship tt seemed to have lasted for 18mths.
i just want to go bak for another 18 days of course again!
ok im crazy LOLs.
anyways, we didnt have a squad cheer unlike the rest, we weren't the most prominent squad in the batch. But all tt doesnt matter for the other squads can never share the bond we had with each other.

I'll never forget the times i had with u guys~